Giving my first presentation
I never really liked to present before, but I think it was because when it was earlier, it was forced in relation to school. In cases where I maybe had something I wanted to share, I didn't have the opportunity. I didn't explicitly seek out the opportunity elsewhere, so there is nobody to blame, but I think if I knew where and how I would have tried earlier. Share a passion with others is a super way to connect with other people, you speak the same language as others in the group.
It was also about doing something new that I hadn't done before, I had seen others on many occasions present stuff with great confidence. It can be really persuasive seeing a good presenter tell a story and something he/she wants you to do, but you also know that it is not her/his first presentation and that the person has likely done it before. That was also a great motivator for me to begin public speaking, knowing that you could become a better speaker, but that you had to at least do the first talk before you could call yourself good!
I have been super grateful for the places that I got to give my first presentations, having a space to express yourself is a huge thing, but because it feels like work and emotional, I don't think I have appreciated it as much as it has helped me.
Giving a presentation takes a lot of work because it forces you to think about what you want to say and how you want to say it. It is like that topic you want to talk with your friends about, but with a presentation put the full spotlight on you, so you can't depend on your friends chipping in and helping to make the conversation interesting and that is scary. Nobody is interesting all the time, but one can be interesting for 20 minutes if they prepare themselves.
I organize meetups today because I want to give other people that experience that I had, that opportunity to connect with others. It takes a lot of time organizing and planning, and I have never earned any money directly from it, but it is a big joy doing it for my past self and others that want to join the conversation.